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Tuesday, May 2nd, 2006
9:20 pm	mmm... wow. i haven't signed on to this account in...two years? mmm... okay, i don't feel like writing right now. ~josh (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 28th, 2004
11:35 pm	sigh* i feel very glum and blah...blah and glum... and i just noticed how buff i used to be...what the heck...when the hell did i take that picture... i think...i want to...eat some ice cream...even though it's almost mid-night... so, eat some ice cream i shall... welcome to fat me... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 25th, 2004
10:48 am	wowzers!!!!! wow!!!!!! i totally forgot about this livejournal until i noticed it on evangeline's blog...well, i've had a xanga site for the past 8 months or so...that's the one that i post to every day...so, if you're still interested in my life (josh's), go visit: http://www.xanga.com/jascue as for lawrence, he splintered off and created his own livejournal site about a year go...soooooooo...yeah! go look at my xanga site instead... ~ josh (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 2nd, 2003
8:57 pm	oh man... sigh*.....i can't believe i'm leaving next saturday...i'm leaving everyone behind...wow...this is so weird...i miss ya'all already...dayam... okay...i'm gonna go start packing... jascue Current Mood: sad Current Music: Extreme - More than Words (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 6th, 2003
11:37 pm	man... dude...my internet is soooo freakin' slow...when i signed on, i wanted to write in my journal really badly...and now that i finally got to the update journal page, i don't feel like writing anymore...well, i shall just say that i can't wait for two years, twenty four hours, and twenty-three minutes to pass...why, you may ask? the answer is simple...i can finally,legally, have my own stash of Smirnoff Ice and Skyy.........well...i guess it doesn't matter...college starts in a month anyway...g'luck ta all who fear the coming days... jascue Current Mood: blah Current Music: Eagle Eye Cherry - Falling In Love (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 29th, 2003
8:38 am	hello!!! helllllllllloooooooooo people... gee, i haven't written in this journal for ages...lemme see, what has happened since the last time i journaled...shoot, i can't even remember when the last time i journaled...oh well, i'll just outline some events that happened since graduation...well...eric ea left shortly afterwards to go to boot camp...i think something's wrong with the mailing system, kuz i receive all his mails but he never gets mine...after he left, i decided to take on a job at vector...yes...i sell cutco...i never ever ever saw myself as a salesperson, but here i am...selling "high quality kitchen cutlery"...oh well, it's good for experience i guess...bleh...okay, enough about the job...um...our church basketball team really sucks right now...we're like, 1 and 5 or something...so that means we need to win every single game from now on to get into playoffs...i think...if we can still get into the playoffs...what the heck man...its so discouraging...okay, enough about basketball...um...oh, lawrence (the other guy who was supposedly sharing this journal with me but has a different account now) and I have been hanging out more lately...we have a "pact" thingie going on...if you guys know us well enough, you probably know what it is already...uh...oh, i had a weird dream last week...luckily, i was able to type most of it out...i'll copy n' paste it here... 7/24/03 Dreams… I remember I was in outerspace, and there was a jumble of metallic colored worlds that were arranged in some intricate pattern…but they had no sun… Then, I remember being in a training room with a squad. We were a squad with heavy, metallic, environmental hazard suits and the leader was a bald guy. He was setting up the next exercise while the intercom announced that our squad was due to report in for a mission. The leader then hurried up with the preparations for the exercise instead of just canceling it and putting it off for later. I thought to myself, uh-oh, this is gonna be trouble. He shouldn’t be hurrying with dangerous things like that. The “things” were gas tanks with some unknown hazardous chemicals inside. Then, the spouts to the tanks broke and a pink gas started to squirt into the air. Our chemical specialist looked at the tanks and then cried out, oh no, these are expired…these are only 50s…I’m so sorry guys…my bad…and all the while, he was hammering on the spouts…I guess I he was trying to close the holes…then I thought, that’s dangerous too…then, sure enough, his hammering caused sparks that ignited the gas…now a third of the room was on fire…I hid behind some tires in a corner of the room…but the room was quite small, and I could still feel the flames…the room was probably, about 25 feet long and 15 feet wide with the flames all on one side of the room and tires jumbled in heaps in each corner of the room…then, something freaked me out, and I ran towards the tires in the other corner of the room…I passed a girl, who was sitting in front of the tires with her left arm propping her up so that she looked like she was posing for a camera…I grasped her hand for a second or two while I ran around her, two of the people in my squad, and the pile of tires. Once I was behind the tires, one of the people in my squad said something I can’t remember…but it was insulting…something that made me feel like I was being a wuss…but the room was on fire and there was no exit…I think I had a right to be afraid…then, I looked through a line of gaps in the tires and saw the girl again. She turned around and looked at me…it looked like she was a picture in a picture frame, with flames as the background in the picture…I wish I could remember what her face looked like, but I know I’ve never seen a face like that before…it wasn’t a stunning face, but it looked serene for some reason…then, I got a vision of a tree with gnarled branches…it had a few small leaves here and there, but it was mostly bare…it was alone by itself with a sun just above it and to the right…and on the tree there was a bird…it was a beautiful, white bird, with a black marking on its head…then, it started to glide off of the tree and downwards…all the while, I was getting closer to it, as if I was zooming in with a camera…I felt refreshed...when the bird took up most of my vision, I came back to the burning room…but I wasn’t as afraid as I had been…but just as I came back to the room…just as I saw a single glimpse of the fiery room with the girl and the remaining members of my squad, I forced myself awake…I don’t know why…I wanted to go back to that girl and find out what was going to happen…but as dreams always are, you can’t force yourself to go back to a dream…well, not all the time…………..as I was laying awake…I still had the feeling of the bird, and that vision was imprinted in my mind…I felt for some reason that I would have that dream again, as I realized that the vision of the metallic worlds had occurred before…it happened a lot with me…there were a couple specific dreams that I kept dreaming, but each time they had subtle differences…and each time, there was more to the dream than had previously occurred…then, my cat came and sat on my chest…yesterday, my mom had said that he was my guard, because he was always around me…and whenever I would sit down or lay down, he would come and lay down next to me or on my lap…one time, I saw him lying on my bed while I was reading in my chair…and after reading a chapter, I looked back at the bed, and he was gone…I just thought that maybe he had gone to the kitchen to eat something…then I looked down, and he was sleeping next to my feet…he always looks so cute when he sleeps… The other chain dreams that I’ve had were really weird…when I started writing this, parts of those semi-dreams seemed clear in my mind…as if I had just dreamed them last night, before the dream that I have just written down…but now that I want to write down what I remember, I can’t remember what they were about…I only remember being in my backyard and then ending up in a football stadium…actually, thinking about it, I was playing football in my dream last night…oh well, whatever…I can’t remember anymore… weird huh? oh well, i have to go cut down a tree in my backyard now...latez... jascue Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: OMC - How Bizarre (Comment on this)
Friday, June 6th, 2003
3:03 pm	... last day of highschool...why did i have to take finals 9 times in the past 3 days?...most of my finals were two day finals...i hate school...and now we have college...oh well, at least i won't have to take 5 finals in one day anymore...unless if i take 5 classes in one semester...which i highly doubt...and now grace is mad at me kuz i told her i didn't want to take her home today......isn't it my right? damn...k', i'ma go kuz i'm at e-games and wastin' time writin' in dis here journal... jascue (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 1st, 2003
1:31 pm	ahhhh!! man...next saturday is wack...i have a graduation/b-day party ta attend, a ucc b-ball game, and cell group............bleh...and right now i hafta study for finals, but i hafta go ta b-ball practice at four, kuz we needa practice kuz our first game is on saturday...okay...i'm done venting...gotta go study, bye bye.... (Comment on this)
Friday, March 14th, 2003
8:02 pm	sadies... tonight, is the sadies hawkins dance...tonight, i am going to chill with my buddies aggie and jamerz...since we are all peoples without sadies dates (james doesnt want a date), we are hanging out like the losers we currently are...my first year without having a sadies date...but its okay...i'm fine...sniff*...jp...not too many people i'd really wanna go with anyway...(and no, i'm not just trying to save face, kuz i have a sadies date for the sunny hills sadie hawkins dance t'morrow night)...anyway...earlier tonight, we somehow ended up at Chili's and got full on appetizers...so many peeps work there now...anyway...after eatin', we took pictures with evelyn...you know, that girl that graduates a couple years ago...aggie's been embarassing me a lot lately...but its cool...he's gotten into the habit of sticking his head out of the passenger side window, yelling out "peace" to random strangers, and taking pictures of any retarded and/or hot looking people...n-e-way...i must depart...g'night... jascue (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 11th, 2003
7:12 am	aiyo.. goodness gracious...if any of ya'all knew my whole life, you'd know why i don't watch soap operas...my life already is one... jascue (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 9th, 2003
12:02 am	... this journal entry has been changed due to personal difficulties... bleh, i got mad at grace... jascue Current Mood: infuriated Current Music: the pain that i'm causing myself... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 2nd, 2003
3:37 pm	mm... life's boring...i mean, since my parents are gone and i'm home alone, i should be having more fun...but instead i'm just bored...everyone else is gone or doing something...i have no idea who ta call...therefore i shall stay at home, vegetate in my bed and on my couch, and turn into a fat, lazy....thing...yay!!!! since i'm sooooo bored, i think i'll make another lesson... Lesson 2, Responses to Sad Events Now, we've all had those certain times where we've felt like crying or crawling under a rock and dying or such...Today, I will lecture some of the ways Josh would respond. Scenario 1 Lets say that your girlfriend dumped you. Response: Immerse yourself in a Final Fantasy RPG or an anime series and pay no attention to all the other events in your life... Scenario 2 Your dog dies. Response: Spend five hours digging a hole in your backyard, have a little ceremony with the quiet time, the lowering of the dog into the hole along with his/her favorite toys, and the positioning of the R.I.P. tablet... Scenario 3 You realize you've wasted your life. Response: Mope around for several months, go to church, notice how much of a dope you are, and then spend a whole month trying to get your life back on track... Note: The response to scenario 3 usually ends up repeating itself a few times a year. Current Mood: crappy Current Music: My head banging on the wall - _*- (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, January 20th, 2003
12:34 am	girls... what i've learned about girls in the past 4 years.... 8th grade - girls think differently than boys 9th grade - girls are cruel 10th grade - girls can get horny too 11th grade - girls have faulty logic (i.e. they are always right, they can have more opportunities than guys, most laws don't apply to them, etc...) 12th grade - still learning... and they think that guys are just plain stupid...well, with all the things that they do to us, we have a right to be stupid... "Guys are stupid, and girls are evil" Josh Ong i say, guys are stupid because we know that girls are evil, but we always go after them anyway...anyway...i shall write about my bitterness.... i am bitter.... hear me...gag.... Gaaaahhhhhgggg.... okay, g'night... jascue jyscal p.s. oh yeah, i added jyscal to my original nickname...now, the full thing means: just a simple confused unkempt enigma joshing your stupid complicated annoying lives... ;-p ...smile!!! jascue (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 15th, 2003
7:39 pm	.... ....my doggy died today...not the mop dog, but the siberian husky...the gardeners accidentally let her out, and she got hit by a car...sniff*...billy and i spent like 3 hours digging a hole for her...digging the hole was hard...seeing my dead doggy was hard...softly placing her in the hole was hard too...her body's so...lifeless now...i'm sad again...i shall go now...bye bye....sniff*... joshy washy... (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 12th, 2003
9:00 pm	interesting... its amazing how open some of these girls are... LiLSwTaNgeL4YoU: wait.. LiLSwTaNgeL4YoU: i need tew go pee.. LiLSwTaNgeL4YoU: brb sneezy x x x: haha sneezy x x x: k' LiLSwTaNgeL4YoU: back sneezy x x x: wow that was fast sneezy x x x: did u wipe? LiLSwTaNgeL4YoU: haha LiLSwTaNgeL4YoU: yea sneezy x x x: wow sneezy x x x: speed demon (1 Comment |Comment on this)
7:38 pm	haha! iamlawrencekao: haha blah iamlawrencekao: blah haha iamlawrencekao: haha blah sneezyxxx: blah haha sneezyxxx: haha blah sneezyxxx: blah haha gosh, i'ma miss my buddies...almost makes me wish it wasn't senior year... Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: Pearl Jam - Last Kiss (Comment on this)
3:35 pm	hmm...i shall write about random replies to stuff... Hello class...my live journal shall now be a course of josh's own workings...in other words, i shall pick what i want to teach at each lesson, and if u wish, u can learn and complete the work exercises...with each lesson completed, u may be able to learn a little more about josh... ;-p Today we are going to learn about responses to people's compliments... Ex. 1 him - Wow, you're a pretty cool guy... Josh - No! I'm an ass hole... Note: this disprupts any of his thoughts about a gay relationship(if he happens to be gay)...and if he's being sincere, then he shouldn't state the obvious anyway... Ex. 2 him - that was a tight move... Josh - thanks...(smile) Ex. 3 her - that was a cool move... Josh - Thanks...want me to teach you? (smile) Note: See the difference between ex. 2 and 3? To males, be modest and honest...but to the girls, be modest, portray yourself as a nice guy, and don't pass up the chance to get on the girl's good side...the only time you wouldn't want to be on a girls good side, is if she has no good side or she scares you... That's it for today's lesson, but here are a few exercises you can do yourself... 1. him - i like your hair... 2. him - that's a nice car... 3. her - that's a nice car... 4. her - what time is it? your friendly idiot, jascue Current Mood: amused Current Music: my im messages (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 5th, 2003
8:11 pm	mmm... okie dokie...hmm...what is up with my life now...just got back from a church retreat...i'm a stronger christian than i've ever been before, and i have a happy outlook on life...for once...kinda... okay, now that that's out of the way, here's the fun stuff... at the retreat, i met buncha people including bryan shaw, luia yen, and alvin yu...eh...i rolled down a hill really fast...it was really fun, except for the part where my pants got dirty kuz i rolled onto a street...but i was rolling so fast that when i put my hands on the ground to stop myself, i bruised my palm...so fun...anyway, last night i went to go so star wars in 30 minutes(which was really funny) but before we saw the play, we went to eat at the California Pizza Kitchen, and the waiter was gay and kept checking me out...kinda weird...and then today, i went to sunday school at UCC for the first time, and at first i was the only guy in the room...i turned around and asked eve if boys come to sunday school, and everybody laughed at me...its okay though...its cool...sniff*...jp...alright, um...the service was awesome and i think i'ma be goin' to church constantly now...hmm...what else...oh after the service, luia had a waving contest with me and she cheated by getting her friends to flick water at me, but it still ended up in a tie...okie dokie, i'm done writing for now...buh bye...i'll write again soon... jascue Current Mood: happy Current Music: Dave Matthews Band - Crash (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 8th, 2002
3:48 pm	sup... gay!!!!! oh well, whatever... i have been single for almost two weeks now...really weird... not used to it anymore...yeah... a'ight, i'ma go look at sharp things...they make me feel better...latez... jascue (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 7th, 2002
6:24 pm	Hmmm... Wow, its been a long time since i've written in this lil journal here...hmm...what should i say?....i like girls...okay, enough said...i shall go now...bye bye... jascue (Comment on this)